I sit day by day trying to think
To understand why I lost my way.
I'd make the same mistake over and over
But its made me who I am today.
I'd always fall on the same shoulder I did the first time.
I'd always think I was okay til it started to hit me harder each time.
Its time for me to be me. And not what someone wants me to be.
I was too stupid. I let someone else have the controller when it's my turn to be playin my game. Of my own life.
After living.
And I mean really living.
I understand so much about life. And how amazing it is.
Im becoming who I'm supposed to be and I'm not gonna be ashamed of it.
If anything I'm grateful I'm able to be able to be my own self. I wasnt realizing how much of me was given away. Now I'm stuck each day with so many things on my mind that shouldn't be. Or I don't want to be.
We can see how it goes but for now I'm aboutto passout
I'm ready to crash. Keep it real People. I'll do my best to bring someuchhh better music soon.
Thanks for reading my blog!
JP
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Friday, December 17, 2010
Out of Place
Have you ever felt out of place?
I have been feeling out of place a lot lately, I'm not sure why. But that's what's been goin down ha.
Sometimes you feel so lonely in a room full of people, maybe because you are going through things that no one else is experiencing.
Sometimes you don't know anyone that is ever going through the same thing you are, which just makes everything harder because you're on your own. It's not impossible it's just harder.
I'm at a pause for words trying to understand it all.
If I tried to explain it I wouldn't be able to though because I don't know exactly how I feel yet at the same time I know that I feel out of place.
The most I can do is just be strong and stand strong for what I know and for what I've been taught.
JP
I have been feeling out of place a lot lately, I'm not sure why. But that's what's been goin down ha.
Sometimes you feel so lonely in a room full of people, maybe because you are going through things that no one else is experiencing.
Sometimes you don't know anyone that is ever going through the same thing you are, which just makes everything harder because you're on your own. It's not impossible it's just harder.
I'm at a pause for words trying to understand it all.
If I tried to explain it I wouldn't be able to though because I don't know exactly how I feel yet at the same time I know that I feel out of place.
The most I can do is just be strong and stand strong for what I know and for what I've been taught.
JP
Find yourself.
Well shoot. I didn't keep my promise of comin to write more! Haha my bad.
Life is crazyy. But it's off the chain.
I feel alive again. Depressing posts are old school to me now haha. I'm just kidding, but I can't believe myself.
I fell into love and and to get hurt so bad was ridiculous. I've never been hurt as bad as I was. Call me soft for sayin that but I'm just Bein honest.
When you are with someone. You are blinded, unless someone is helping you be better and making you want to strive to be a better person.
It's crazy, lemme tell ya.
Obviously I didn't know cause I was in the situation myself
I was blinded by everyone, and after stepping back and getting out of I feel so much happier and alive. It's crazy how insane life is. You never really understand unless you REALLY try.
I almost gave up my passion and goals cause I was sooo blind.
I can now say I know a lot more about relationships than before.
It makes so much sense now. There are so many other peope in the world im excited to see who my girl will be.
Cause if she's mine I know it'll be meant to be and Imma spoil her and take care of her best as I can. Hahaha
That's just me.
Anyways guys. My music is comin ou nicely :) I really dig it.
I took a little break in the studio to write. I love writing, and reading, i really don't know why though haha.
Anyways I'll write more!!
I gotta get back to this track!
Toasts for being alive!
JP
Life is crazyy. But it's off the chain.
I feel alive again. Depressing posts are old school to me now haha. I'm just kidding, but I can't believe myself.
I fell into love and and to get hurt so bad was ridiculous. I've never been hurt as bad as I was. Call me soft for sayin that but I'm just Bein honest.
When you are with someone. You are blinded, unless someone is helping you be better and making you want to strive to be a better person.
It's crazy, lemme tell ya.
Obviously I didn't know cause I was in the situation myself
I was blinded by everyone, and after stepping back and getting out of I feel so much happier and alive. It's crazy how insane life is. You never really understand unless you REALLY try.
I almost gave up my passion and goals cause I was sooo blind.
I can now say I know a lot more about relationships than before.
It makes so much sense now. There are so many other peope in the world im excited to see who my girl will be.
Cause if she's mine I know it'll be meant to be and Imma spoil her and take care of her best as I can. Hahaha
That's just me.
Anyways guys. My music is comin ou nicely :) I really dig it.
I took a little break in the studio to write. I love writing, and reading, i really don't know why though haha.
Anyways I'll write more!!
I gotta get back to this track!
Toasts for being alive!
JP
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
I Know Who I Am
So, after living my whole life thus far, I have learned SOOO, many things.
I am only grateful to everything I have been through and anything that seems hard to me, never is because I can always overcome a challenge that comes my way with the help of the people around me. I'm never on my own, no matter how many people think they are. Something is always helping them. Whether you are at school learning, the teacher is helping you learn. Whether you are driving a car, someone made it possible for you to drive a car. Even puttin on your clothes. Your muscles help you put them on, along with the people who made the clothing. You can never do anything alone. Even if you want to!
Sorry for not posting for a while. I am gettin' back on it! Trust me!
JP
I am only grateful to everything I have been through and anything that seems hard to me, never is because I can always overcome a challenge that comes my way with the help of the people around me. I'm never on my own, no matter how many people think they are. Something is always helping them. Whether you are at school learning, the teacher is helping you learn. Whether you are driving a car, someone made it possible for you to drive a car. Even puttin on your clothes. Your muscles help you put them on, along with the people who made the clothing. You can never do anything alone. Even if you want to!
Sorry for not posting for a while. I am gettin' back on it! Trust me!
JP
Sunday, November 7, 2010
The Life of ME.
The life of me is going crazy...I feel like at least.
Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I want to be getting into the habit of writing everyday. At least to the point where I'm sharing something cool.
Love has gotten my life all tied up right now. I wish it could all go back to how it used to be.
Today is Sunday. First day of the week. What should I do this week? Hmm..let's try to move forward.
I'm an impatient person...I should PROObably work on that haha.
Anyways....in the spirit of Thanksgiving month. I just wanted to say how Grateful I am to have everything in my life. From the people who love me. to the people who I love. I don't know where I'd be without everything I have now.
That's all for now.
People whom I love, you know I do.
If you don't and you think I should...I most likely do. haha...anyways...I'm really tryin to just have some variety in my mixtape coming out soon. It'll be good.
Alright thanks for readin! Leave commentsss..
JP
Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I want to be getting into the habit of writing everyday. At least to the point where I'm sharing something cool.
Love has gotten my life all tied up right now. I wish it could all go back to how it used to be.
Today is Sunday. First day of the week. What should I do this week? Hmm..let's try to move forward.
I'm an impatient person...I should PROObably work on that haha.
Anyways....in the spirit of Thanksgiving month. I just wanted to say how Grateful I am to have everything in my life. From the people who love me. to the people who I love. I don't know where I'd be without everything I have now.
That's all for now.
People whom I love, you know I do.
If you don't and you think I should...I most likely do. haha...anyways...I'm really tryin to just have some variety in my mixtape coming out soon. It'll be good.
Alright thanks for readin! Leave commentsss..
JP
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Life.
Man, life has been pretty hard lately. Let me tell you.
I DO KNOW, that everything I am going through will be worth it in the end.
I used to have in my mind that anything bad that would happen was just my luck, was because of it being someones fault. It never is though. It's never someone's fault, if it really is, then the situation doesn't need to be in your life, but in those type of cases are just usually "high school happenings," meaning that as something that would happen in high school, something you know better than to get yourself into. I'm not saying relationships that you have from high school that you still have now. Chances are if you still have a relationship with a girlfriend from high school, either you can't leave each other because one got pregnant or you are truly in love. That's the way I look at it.
A lot of times people blame things on everything else. Something that I've learned to do is either not blame anyone and take the blame yourself, or just be patient if it happens to be a situation that you are blaming someone for not getting something in return sooner.
The world is so impatient these days that I doubt half of you are reading all my posts, or even caring to see what their about, and you just read the topic heading and don't find it interesting so you move on with life.
All in all, everything we do is a choice. Whether we are choosing to pour the milk in the bowl and not the counter, or choosing to wake up at 6 o' clock to workout everyday. Every choice has a consequence. Good or bad, and even if we get upset about something, or a consequence, you are choosing to do that. Let's say your parents decide to not pay for your phone anymore...most people will be upset and tell everyone that their parents are being unfair by not paying for it. Number 1, they are blaming their parents, and number 2, they are choosing to let that decision make them upset.
I hope I haven't lost you guys here, but know that everything we do in life is a choice, no matter how we look at it. I choose to express how I feel through my blog, my music, and a few people in which I trust. Now think about it, and every time you are out making a decision, or every time you are blaming someone for something, or every time you are upset....think if it's something that should be getting you upset, think if you should be blaming that person.
It's up to you, you decide.
JP
RSN(Random Side Note) - The Mixtape will be done really soon. I am just putting the finishing touches on it all I think!! The only Delay will be that I am trying to get Diggy Simmons on a feature..yeah you heard me! One of my favorite rappers. He's gonna be a legend. In my opinion. Don't let that get to you... ;)
I DO KNOW, that everything I am going through will be worth it in the end.
I used to have in my mind that anything bad that would happen was just my luck, was because of it being someones fault. It never is though. It's never someone's fault, if it really is, then the situation doesn't need to be in your life, but in those type of cases are just usually "high school happenings," meaning that as something that would happen in high school, something you know better than to get yourself into. I'm not saying relationships that you have from high school that you still have now. Chances are if you still have a relationship with a girlfriend from high school, either you can't leave each other because one got pregnant or you are truly in love. That's the way I look at it.
A lot of times people blame things on everything else. Something that I've learned to do is either not blame anyone and take the blame yourself, or just be patient if it happens to be a situation that you are blaming someone for not getting something in return sooner.
The world is so impatient these days that I doubt half of you are reading all my posts, or even caring to see what their about, and you just read the topic heading and don't find it interesting so you move on with life.
All in all, everything we do is a choice. Whether we are choosing to pour the milk in the bowl and not the counter, or choosing to wake up at 6 o' clock to workout everyday. Every choice has a consequence. Good or bad, and even if we get upset about something, or a consequence, you are choosing to do that. Let's say your parents decide to not pay for your phone anymore...most people will be upset and tell everyone that their parents are being unfair by not paying for it. Number 1, they are blaming their parents, and number 2, they are choosing to let that decision make them upset.
I hope I haven't lost you guys here, but know that everything we do in life is a choice, no matter how we look at it. I choose to express how I feel through my blog, my music, and a few people in which I trust. Now think about it, and every time you are out making a decision, or every time you are blaming someone for something, or every time you are upset....think if it's something that should be getting you upset, think if you should be blaming that person.
It's up to you, you decide.
JP
RSN(Random Side Note) - The Mixtape will be done really soon. I am just putting the finishing touches on it all I think!! The only Delay will be that I am trying to get Diggy Simmons on a feature..yeah you heard me! One of my favorite rappers. He's gonna be a legend. In my opinion. Don't let that get to you... ;)
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