Do you ever make the same mistake?

I sit day by day trying to think
To understand why I lost my way.
I'd make the same mistake over and over
But its made me who I am today.

I'd always fall on the same shoulder I did the first time.
I'd always think I was okay til it started to hit me harder each time.

Its time for me to be me. And not what someone wants me to be.
I was too stupid. I let someone else have the controller when it's my turn to be playin my game. Of my own life.

After living.
And I mean really living.
I understand so much about life. And how amazing it is.

Im becoming who I'm supposed to be and I'm not gonna be ashamed of it.
If anything I'm grateful I'm able to be able to be my own self. I wasnt realizing how much of me was given away. Now I'm stuck each day with so many things on my mind that shouldn't be. Or I don't want to be.

We can see how it goes but for now I'm aboutto passout
I'm ready to crash. Keep it real People. I'll do my best to bring someuchhh better music soon.
Thanks for reading my blog!

JP

Out of Place

Have you ever felt out of place?

I have been feeling out of place a lot lately, I'm not sure why. But that's what's been goin down ha.

Sometimes you feel so lonely in a room full of people, maybe because you are going through things that no one else is experiencing.

Sometimes you don't know anyone that is ever going through the same thing you are, which just makes everything harder because you're on your own. It's not impossible it's just harder.

I'm at a pause for words trying to understand it all.
If I tried to explain it I wouldn't be able to though because I don't know exactly how I feel yet at the same time I know that I feel out of place.

The most I can do is just be strong and stand strong for what I know and for what I've been taught.

JP

Find yourself.

Well shoot. I didn't keep my promise of comin to write more! Haha my bad.

Life is crazyy. But it's off the chain.

I feel alive again. Depressing posts are old school to me now haha. I'm just kidding, but I can't believe myself.

I fell into love and and to get hurt so bad was ridiculous. I've never been hurt as bad as I was. Call me soft for sayin that but I'm just Bein honest.

When you are with someone. You are blinded, unless someone is helping you be better and making you want to strive to be a better person.
It's crazy, lemme tell ya.
Obviously I didn't know cause I was in the situation myself
I was blinded by everyone, and after stepping back and getting out of I feel so much happier and alive. It's crazy how insane life is. You never really understand unless you REALLY try.

I almost gave up my passion and goals cause I was sooo blind.

I can now say I know a lot more about relationships than before.
It makes so much sense now. There are so many other peope in the world im excited to see who my girl will be.
Cause if she's mine I know it'll be meant to be and Imma spoil her and take care of her best as I can. Hahaha

That's just me.

Anyways guys. My music is comin ou nicely :) I really dig it.
I took a little break in the studio to write. I love writing, and reading, i really don't know why though haha.

Anyways I'll write more!!

I gotta get back to this track!

Toasts for being alive!

JP